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I’m trying to cut myself some slack because I’m starting at what is one of the busiest times of year for me but gosh, I suck at this!  Because I’m hypoglycemic I’m terrified to get hungry because that usually leads to getting sick, or at least very cranky!  So I’m going to try to follow this pattern:

 300 calories (7am, usually high fiber cereal &milk)
200 calories (10:30am, something high protien, boiled eggs or chicken)
300 calories (1:30pm, light “lunch”)
400 calories (5pm, dinner)
100 calories (later…8 or so)

I can see where I’m going wrong.  I just plain eat too much!  This puts me at 1300 calories.  It should be enough to keep me going and get some weight off.  If (when?) I start exercising consistently I may need to nudge it up slightly.  I don’t want to lose too fast but one pound in two weeks well, that’s not working either since it’s probably just water flux.

I don’t have time to keep  a food journal right now.  I wish I did.  I’m just going to have to hold tight to those numbers and watch what I eat with those numbers.  I really need to up my protien (keeps my sugar stable) and veggies (bulk) and cut out as many starchy carbs as I can.  I know I can do this…

Well, sometimes in life you don’t take the easiest path to get to where you need to be.  This is one of those times.  But, I’m back.  Funny thing is my last post was about losing weight to be a good example for my ball team and it’s once again ball season and I’m once again coaching.  This is a challenge not a motivation. Those teams EAT my time but I love it.  I’ve coached the last two years and I’m already sad that one day my kids will be too old to play so I won’t be able to coach!

But…on to the matter at hand.  I have got to make some changes to get myself healthier.  I turned 30 last fall and shortly before was rediagnosed with hypoglycemia.  Duh…I’ve known I was hypoglycemic since I was 15, BUT I never really connected it to my struggle with my weight because at that point I wasn’t really overweight. 

 I know now that getting enough activity and keeping my bloodsugar stable are going to be the keys to my sucess.  My goal for this week is simple.  Track everything I eat here and move as much as possible with a minimum as 3 days exercise.  I also plan  on posting a blog at least once a week (on mondays). 

 That’s it for now….I’m at work and should be, well, working!

Wow….when you step outside yourself and look back in sometimes you don’t like what you see.  My moment was this weekend when this fat, out of shape mother of three was asked to be the manager (aka head coach) for her daughter’s softball team.  Now, we live in a school district where all sports are a huge deal.  I’m not really sure how I’m feeling about this, other than I don’t feel like I’m a very good example for girls to be looking up to. 

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So that’s more motivation for me.  I need to take care of myself to be a good healthy example for not just my girls, but the girls that will be on my team. 

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My sweet sister did make me feel better by reminding me of some of the guys that we had for coaches…not exactly the picture of health.  But that’s not the kind of coach I want to be.  I want to lead by example and that’s exactly what I’m going to do!

So, I’ve been thinking about the goals that I posted in my last blog.  For some reason I couldn’t get why a 12 to an 8 was such a big size diffrence, well, apparently the size 10 just disappeared from reality for me somewhere along the way!  Those goals should be a 10 by labor day, not an 8.  One size at a time….I’d love to see that 8 by Christmas, but I’m not focusing on that right now.  I’m just focusing on finding that 12 by the end of June.

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The weekend wasn’t too bad.  I went on a nice long walk with Toby saturday morning before hubby or the kids were up.  It was foggy and cool….I kind of wished I could have went alone.  It would have been more relaxing because Toby is a puller, but he did keep my pace up. 

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My legs and feet are sore from climbing up and down ladders putting up the ceiling in the living room, and my arms ache from drywalling.  I’m on the total life make over plan.  LOL.  Remodeling your house will remodel your body! 

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That’s it….I just don’t feel like talking food right now.  I’m putting some thought into it….I’d like some kind of plan other than “eat better”.  This week I’m focusing on making positive subsitutions, like earlier I wanted chips but had popcorn.  I was just as happy and had way more for less calories.  It actually took away my hunger, not just my craving. 

I typed up a blog yesterday and the system ate it.  Didn’t have time to retype so here I am today. 

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I’m hanging in there.  I’m struggling with food, but I know with the weather lifting that the grill will be getting used more and more, and fresh fruits and veggies will become cheaper and more avaliable.  So, I’m just pushing forward in that.

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My new goals aren’t so much about the numbers on the scales as just moving forward and treating myself with love and respect.  I just bought over two hundred dollars in new clothes.  It feels good to go to the closet and have things that *fit*.  In turn, I love me more and want to take care of me. I’m walking more.  I actually was upset this morning when I realized that I won’t have time to walk alone until after hubby comes home.  Then I don’t know that it will happen because he likes to go with.  I’m trying to make better food choices and again, that’s easier because I feel like I’m taking care of me in other ways so it comes more naturally.

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Those clothes I was talking about….mostly size 16’s but one 14.  My new number goal is a 12 by the time I do this again (clothes shopping) in June.  I figure summer stuff should be going on sale by then.  I have a number in mind I would like to see on the scale but that doesn’t mean half of what my size will mean. 

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The goal after that is to be in an 8 by labor day.  Sounds lofty, but I eat better and move much, much more durning the spring and summer.  Plus Paul and I want to take up tennis and hiking.  Sounds like a good time to me!  I know I can do this, with just simple shifts in attitudes and actions.  The extra activity of properly caring for my dog and my yard would be enough exercise in and of themselves but I’m trying to add some toning in too. I LOVE feeling strong! 

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Okay…..when I realize a blog is just going on but not heading in any particular direction, I know it’s time to stop….I’m taking the time to comment eveyone on monday.  Today I’ve simply GOT to find my house!

First off to answer Jo’s question to the previous blog…Hubby beat me by a land slide in the first month.  We we supposed to start back up again last week, but things have been so crazy with the house and sick kids that we’re putting it off just a bit.  The awesome part is he’s managed to keep what he lost off!  So proud of him!

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So…my new motivation is my doggy.  Toby is a 5 year old lab and the vet told me today that she’d like to see him at least 10 pounds lighter….Poor guy!  (this is on top of an ear infection and allergies!)  So, I need to really commit to walking him every day, if not for me, than for him. 

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Eating is a struggle for me at the moment.  I did get some healthy snacks so that’s good.  I’ve had baby carrots and cherry tomatos today.  Yummy!  Plus, I was starving when we got home from the vet and even though I could have easily grabbed something really bad, I had myself a bowl of Special K with red berries….mmmmmmmmmm….that stuff is addictive!

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Okay…lots of work to do.  I made lasagna for dinner, but used low fat cheeses and halved the meat.  Plus I’ll have a great big salad with mine so not too bad.

Would you leave for a trip without packing your suitcase?  No, no you wouldn’t.  So why then did I go back on WW without the right foods in the house???  I didn’t do too terrible until evening.  I needed to eat a bit less at dinner and the Lofthouse cookie that hubby brought me….Ugh…diet disaster!  LOL. 

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I’m grinning about it though knowing that I’m moving in the right direction.  I’ll take myself out, hopefully today, and get some raw veggies for snacking.  Other than that the day went pretty well. 

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I’m not feeling 100% but I refuse to let that be an excuse to not do this. 

So here I am.  I’m coming back and just hoping (and praying) that the influenza that my lovely children are currently passing around will NOT hit me.  We’ve had a serious illness in the house since mid-jan…before that Christmas and more illnesses….Did I mention the fact that we are in the midst of remodeling out living room and all my living room furnature is in the dining room?  Yeah, I thought I forgot that one!

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I’m done.  I had a mini melt down this weekend over the fact that I never do anything for myself.  Hubby doesn’t have that problem…why do I???  Anyway…buying myself some new clothes was te first step in loving myself.  Next is getting back on WW and starting to workout.  Very exciting. 

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I’m off to the shower but will be around to say hey to my buddies this afternoon.  I’m gonna need y’all getting restarted!

We’re still here…still dealing with snow and sickness but I do see the light at the end of the tunnel!  I’ll be back very, very soon.  Missing my buddies!

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Mindy

Ugh.  I just wanted to give y’all a quick update on us.  First off, the lake has dumped about two feet of snow on us in the last 48 hours.  Beautiful.  The only day it isnt’ supposed to snow is wednesday….school is out, not so much because of the roads (although the back roads are in rough shape) but because there is so much snow at the school that they don’t know where to put it!

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Secondly, Paul has shinlges.  Poor guy is pretty sick.  Exercise is totally out for him right now and it’s hard to watch what you eat as much when you are in as much pain as he’s in.  My poor honey.  (good news is that it was caught early and he was put on antivirals quickly so it should only last two weeks instead of 4 weeks or more)

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So…that’s where we are.  Weigh in is tomorrow, but I’m not counting on a loss for either of us, and possibly a gain for us both.  That said….this is temporary.  We’re both ready for this to be over with and to get on with this journey.